Wednesday, October 9, 2024

Lost in translation - Alan Castaneda


The Rush

I am living the big city routine in my way. I am from El Grullo Jalisco, a small town located in Mexico, a town where people can’t do that much because there is not a lot of places to explore. Even though my hometown is technically called a city, I consider it a town because it is small, to the point where a lot of people know each other. People who I have talked to from my hometown say that living in a place like that feels like being judged all the time, and they can’t do things or dress in a certain way because people always look at them. Some are afraid of what others will think. When I moved to Chicago two years ago, I was surprised in a good way, because here I could feel like that fear of being judged doesn’t exist. Even though there is a big population, I felt I could be the real me and that I have lost the fear of being judged. Moving from a town to a big city means adapting, changing routines and maybe even the way of dressing. 


Something that I liked when I first arrived was that I could wear anything I wanted. It was as if I was in a movie, where the main character is finally free and starts a new life. I started to do things that would have been seen negatively back in my hometown. I was constantly experimenting with clothes. I remember one time when I thrifted a really big pair of jeans that could fit almost two of me. When I wore them for the first time, no one was looking at me the way some people from my hometown would look at me if I wore something like that there. That was when I realized I could experiment with clothes as if I was a scientist doing an experiment in his laboratory. I even started cropping pieces of clothes to make them look the way I wanted. I started to appreciate the different ways that people style their clothes instead of judging. Growing up in a place where people constantly give weird looks to someone wearing something considered different made me sometimes do that as well. When I moved to Chicago, I really changed my mind about that. If I don’t like something, it doesn’t mean it has to be bad. Now making an outfit to me means expressing my mood of that day, or even my personality. One time I saw a guy wearing a pair of jeans that were tight, but loose at the bottom. It was some kind of a bootcut, but not exactly like that. If I had seen that three or four years ago, I would have thought that it looked weird, but I really like that style now. I have changed. 

Despite the fact that I’m comfortable with the style, not everything has been so easy. Getting used to the education system of the United States has been a little difficult for me. It’s not like something from another world, but when I have a routine, I start to do things automatically. Changing that drastically made me feel like I was lost. I felt like I was the only person that was confused. When I started to meet people, I realized I was not the only person that was confused, or the only one that was trying to adapt. The first friend I met, Jamil, was as confused as me. He had moved from Ecuador, and that made me feel like I was not alone. Socializing in school is another thing I’m getting used to as well. I have met other great people in college but studying and working means being kind of in a hurry, so it has been difficult to have long talks and hang out with friends. Recently, the restaurant where I used to work closed, so now that I don’t have a job, I feel strange not being in a hurry all the time. I guess I’m starting to adapt now, I think feeling free but also being constantly in a rush is part of the big city routine. 

Adapting to this lifestyle is something that I could have never expected when I was in Mexico. I also think that people never finish adapting. Everything around us is constantly changing every day, things like fashion, language, and customs are always evolving. A change in life doesn’t always have to be bad.  










8 comments:

  1. Hi Alan, thank you for sharing your story. I'm happy you are into the fashion as me. I'm also from a small town in Korea. That means everyone know each other, and there was no secret in the town I lived. I was stressful with these things like you. Now, most of my clothes in my closet is changed. I really felt free in Chicago compared to living in Korea. I glad you wear and do whatever you want, and I want you enjoy enough your time when you are free from work.

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  2. Hi Alan, I know how stressful it can be to live in a small town where there is basically no privacy, and everyone's behavior is being watched by everyone else. Coming to a big city is like a fish in a tank being released into the sea. I think it is not necessarily a bad thing for a person to meet difficulties, but it is a challenge and a test. I believe that the difficulties you encounter at present will be overcome by you one day, and your future will be better and better.

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  3. Hi Alan! Thanks for sharing your story. It's so nice that you don’t feel judged anymore. That’s really important. I can understand you. In Colombia, my parents used to said me: "don’t go outside in your pajamas, what will people say?" Now, I walk outside in whatever I want, and it feels so freeing! :) Thanks for reminding me of that.

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  4. Hi Alan, I can understand the feeling that you said. when I lived in the small town in China, my behavoir and dress were restriction and made me feel constraint and unable to be myself. I'm glad you found the lifestyle you like in the United States, nothing is difficlut, just never give up and like the sun will still rise tomorrow.

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  5. Hi Alan, I totally agree with you about the clothes. In my country, women should not wear shorts or something that shows your legs outside. It was very frustrated for me because it is hot there sometimes. It changed now because I can wear everything I want without being told to take it off.

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  6. Hi, Alan. I understand what it’s like to live in a small town and be judged for what you wear. After coming to the United States, I also realized the freedom to dress. When I go out in a nice dress, people compliment me and it makes me more confident. Besides, the adult world is really a rush, but I hope you’re slowing yourself down and feeling the beauty of life.

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  7. Hi Alan! I feel same as you when I was in the process of adapting. It's always not easy like our expectation. It's a painful, happiness experience, but after you adapted, you will realize that all the things are worth.

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  8. Thank you Alan for sharing your story. I'm glad you feel freer to dress as you wish. I think it's good that you show who you really are without fearing what people will say.

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